The other day I spent 50 bucks on some art supplies. I BOUGHT ART SUPPLIES! I AM POOR! DO YOU KNOW HOW EXPENSIVE THAT SHIT IS? AND I SPENT 50 BUCKS!
Anyways.. I am quite excited about it because it is a medium I havenot used since highschool! yay!
I bought a fountain pen, 4 different colour inks and a water colour sketch pad. I did one sheet of practice just to get into it. I want to do more but I have yet to find the perfect picture to draw.

In other news. Dear Jericka here is going to Mexico in April to build houses for the needy! Actually, we are only going to be building one house.. and its out of steel...
I have never been to Mexico. We are going to the Los Pinos area of Mazatlan! So excited. i cant wait to see the place, see the people, get some drawings a photographs in. I cant wait to build this house. I cant wait to get my hair corn rowed. (Christy made sure to tell me that when we were talking about Mexico last night...).

Gosh what else can I ramble on about?
I am thinking of applying to the local university and take some art classes. AGAIN WITH MONEY STUFF! Gawd, I wish I was not poor. But alas, I need to take classes! I do not do art enough.

Bah!
ANY QUESTIONS?

Ps. My cat likes to stick her nose up mine, lick my eyelids, eat my hair and eat my necklace.

I wish there were ways to express what I am thinking without actually having to write it all down. I know what I want to say, but trying to say it and have it sound the way I want it to. but when I try, it doesn't come out right.
Now that I am sitting down and writing, I don't know what I wanted to say. Lame.

Remember my job? The bowling alley and how much I do not like it? Well, it's the same way, but now I am afraid to leave. What if I cannot find another place like this? Where the people are great and I have the security... I am afraid that I will quit for my new job, and I wont like the new job at all and will be stuck. I've also been given new responsibilities, and raises, so now I make more money, and I am a supervisor. Bah, it's a neat little conundrum!

Bah, there are so many thoughts swirling in my brain right now that I do not know if I can even get them out!
I know I'm sad I lost some friends. I thought they were pretty rockin, and now I can't even talk to half of them without it seeming like I am a creepy ex who wants in on everything again. (I am not a creepy ex, I just miss all the stuff we used to do.. rawr). I mean, I love my friends now too, but it still sucks when you lose a friend. Oh well, I guess I have to get used to the fact that people change, even if you do not want them to.

On another note, I think I am afraid of all future relationships. I think, because of all the times I have been hurt, that I have become afraid to get into a relationship for fear that I will eventually be rejected, yet again, and I dunno if I can do that again. I also feel like I am hesitant because I'm not looking to just "date". I want someone to spend the rest of my life with NOW. I want to get married, I want to have kids. And that's probably really freaky to a lot of guys my age, I mean.. I am only 20.
There's a guy right now, who I know likes me, and at one point I really liked him too. Now, I am not sure! It's hard to explain. I think I am just scared ya know?

We got a cat today. Taylor (Rebekahs boyfriend) found a cat on his grandparents farm and it looks like it was abandoned! It was in some poop or something and it was hungry and scared and stuff, so we took it home! She is.. wow shes so cute. Shes so tiny! Shes got the biggest eyes out there, and the markings on her face make her seem egyptian so we are going to give her an egyptian name.

What else can I ramble on about?
My car is dying.
I am drawing a lot.
I listen to a shit load of music.
I have become obsessed with taking baths.
My back is KILLING me and I have NO idea why...

I suppose that is all in my head right now.. Bah.

shaw came by today.
We now have our own internet.
Like.. its OURS!

REJOICE!

I missed my 6 year Deviant Art Anniversary.
Why do I always miss it?

ANYWAYS!

I know I am not on here a lot, and I scarecely upload anything anymore, but I am trying. I should upload some of my drawings. I just cant get motivated to draw much, so you'll have to deal with all the photos I take.
So.. 6 years? Where does the time go. According to this, I had just turned 14 when I joined. FOURTEEN! There are few people who watched me then that still watch me regularly, and I think they are Rebekah and Darsi? i dunno.
Anyways, Thanks for all the support and love! i REALLY appreciate it and I have no idea where I would be without this site. It's been a part of me for so long, I can't imagine what it would be like to leave it.

So Rebekah (:miss-ribbit32 and I moved in to our apartment today! We started getting things loaded onto trucks around 8-830 ish this morning and had like 10 people(including us) helping us out. It's been, hell.
10 people in this tiny apartment? CRAZY! But it was really nice because we got everything in here by 2 pm, so all that is left to do is unpack, but we are so tired, we don't feel like doing much.
But we both have the day off of work tomorrow, SO, we're going to unpack and go grocery shopping. I am really excited for this.

PICS OF THE PLACE TO COME SOON!

LLOVE <3